Sunday, February 10, 2013

My testimony about our journey with Beckham

I was able to share this in church today, February 10, 2013

One year ago we began a journey that we never anticipated.  We found out we were going to be grandparents for the very first time.  We were over the top excited even though we knew this little one would be over a thousand miles away from us since our kids live in Dallas Texas.  One month later we found out that little one would not enter this world, but rather had been taken from us before we ever got to lay eyes on him.

It was not long after and we were thrilled to learn there was another baby on the way.  The anticipation was high and once we got through the first trimester we thought we were pretty much home free.  Our kids wanted to know the sex of the baby so we waited for the news of whether our first grandchild would be a boy or girl.

I think we were all in a bit of shock to learn that a little boy was on his way.  We only knew how to do the girl thing at our house having had 3 daughters.  It was at this point that we also learned that our little boy would be born with HLHS meaning the left side of his heart did not develop.

The tears fell and they fell hard.  Dave and I cried together and prayed.  We struggled, but knew we needed to rest on our faith knowing God does not make mistakes and His finger prints were all over baby Beckham and his little growing heart.  We immediately found ourselves seeking after God hard and fast.

Over the couple of months that followed it was a daily roller coaster ride.  Longing to believe for total healing and yet asking God if He might be choosing to allow this little one to enter this world without a complete heart.  Either way we never doubted that miracles would come.

Beckham was born on Dec 21.  We fell in love with him even before we arrived in Dallas to meet him the day after his birth.

In the days that followed as we waited for him to have open heart surgery, the first of three, I found myself praying constantly.  I still cried more than I had in a very long time and I longed for God to carry me through this amazing time and a time that was also the worst in my entire life.  This precious little boy had captured my heart and yet I knew the reality of possibly losing him was still in the picture.

After twelve days of bonding with and loving Beckham we sat as a family in his hospital room early in the morning with the lights down low and waited for the team to arrive to take him to surgery.  Our daughter held her son as tears slipped down her cheeks and our son in law sang over him Matt Redman's 10,000 reasons-bless the Lord and Never Once .  It wasn't long and all of us were passing the tissues.  A moment I will never forget.

We gathered in a small room while we waited for each update on the 3 plus hours of surgery.  Peace filled the room and completely filled my heart.  I knew this was a very critical time, but I was witness to the Lord's directing each step from the best possible location in Dallas, to the best surgeon, to the support of godly family and friends.

The days that followed were filled with joy each time we saw Beckham improve.  When the set backs came we felt disappointment, but deep within my spirit I found peace that passes all understanding.  God was there.  He was in Beckham's room and holding this baby in His palm.  I knew that I knew this was truth.

It's now been 7 weeks since surgery.  Dave came home to work a week after surgery and last weekend I flew to Chicago where Dave picked me up to head home.  We talked on the drive home about our feelings and emotions.

We both agreed that we had grown and now were able to see the situation from a different perspective than we had before Beckham's birth.  We both felt as though we had been called to follow.  God was not asking us to beg for total and complete healing, although we knew He was able to do just that.  We, instead, felt that resting in His plan and holding fast to the fact that He would never let us go was enough.  He had called us to a new place in our lives and we wanted to follow knowing the cost would be high, but worth the journey.  We found ourselves reminded to not wait for adversity to come to draw us closer to the Lord.  James 4:8 Come close to God and He will come close to you...THAT was our plan and continues to be from here on out.

Oh, seeing a baby born perfect would have made our lives easy and our future bright, but knowing Beckham was special caused us to surrender our hope for a perfect life and rather bask in the beauty of a life led and directed by God even if the storms were huge and the boat at times felt as though it was sinking.

No, our boat didn't sink.  Instead we found Christ calming the storms and commanding the waves to cease.  We found a peace that surely passes all understanding and hope that God's plan for Beckham was and is far greater than our human minds can comprehend.

This little boy has already touched the hearts and lives of people all over the world.  The word of our testimony has been a blessing to share even if the story continues to leave us with hurdles.  We are at peace.  We are hope filled and excited to see what lies ahead for our family and baby Beckham.

God's promises are always true.  He never leaves, never forsakes.

My middle daughter, Alicia, shared a song with me by one of the praise and worship leaders at their church, Meredith Andrews, while we waited together in the lobby at the Children's hospital.  The lyrics seemed to have been written just for me, just for our family and to remind us of the priceless hope we have in Christ alone.

Tomorrow Beckham finally will come home! 
Thank you Lord.  I also want to thank each person that has offered up prayers on Beckham's behalf and uplifted the rest of our family through comments, emails and gifts of love.  I know your love and support has helped to see all of us through this journey so far. 
... from Matt Redman
Never once did we ever walk alone
Never once did You leave us on our own

 Welcome Beckham West Moreno

 Ready to be transported to the Dallas Children's Medical Center

Mommy Lindsey enjoying some holding and bonding time.

 Sweet baby boy.
Grandpa Dave with his little grandson on the first day of holding.
 Daddy Beto, such a natural at this love thing!
 Auntie Jenna totally in love with this little boy
 Post surgery :(

 Growing stronger weeks after surgery.  
Less wires and no feeding tube!!!

 A one hour practice run with the car seat before the actual going home ride, 
a hospital requirement.

 Auntie Alicia savoring some Beckham time 
on her second visit to Dallas.

You are faithful, God, You are faithful
You are faithful, God, You are faithful
You will lead us on. 
We shall not be overcome!!!  
God you are faithful!!!


Cheri said...

What a beautiful post. You have such a way with words! God is so good! So thankful this little blessing is heading home tomorrow. What a wonderful testimony of God's faithfulness!

Sylvia said...

Oh My Ginger, what a testimony of God's Presence and Peace and, and, and, and - so much. So touching to read it,and what a privilege to have seen you on your journey. Thank you for sharing so much with us all. Love that picture of Beckham in his car seat. Little poppet.My heart would have been for you all to be spared the pain and heartache - but I KNOW that, not once, has He left you on your own. (Remember posting song on Hearts a little while ago. Love you lots. S

Mari said...

What a testimony you've shared! Yes, little Beckham's story has touched people from all over the world and I really appreciated reading it from your viewpoint.
I loved seeing the pictures of him from birth till now and seeing him grow and recuperate from that surgery. He's just adorable and I'm so happy to hear that he's coming home tomorrow.
We'll keep praying for him and all of you too!
PS - Both songs you shared here were perfect!

Just Mom said...


That was really beautiful.

Julie said...

Thank you for sharing here, Ginger. Moving and faith building. It was a privilege to join you (and as you continue) on this journey. Sometimes God hands us some rough moments to shake up our little corner of comfort in this world, and rattle our hearts in such a way that we KNOW there is NO place else to turn....but HIM alone. And then, He does HIS best work on us. And when we allow others to come alongside and gather before the throne WITH us...storm the gates of Heaven with both praise AND requests...we know what it's like to be part of the family of God. And that's a blessing. Thank you. Keep on sharing. So thrilled that little warrior is going to the nest. {{hugs to you all}} xo :-)

Karen Winger said...

Ginger it was so wonderful to hear your anointed story about your journey with sweet little baby Beckham--this story has went world wide and it will give hope to many--your family is truly amazing--what a lucky little boy to have that much love showered on him--all I can say is' God be the Glory'for great things he has done--Love you and your family and will be looking forward about Beckham and his progress--In Christ we stand---

Susan said...

This life is a journey and thanks for letting us be part of this segment of yours.

Peppermint said...

Awesome testimony. God is good. Love the song. The Pictures are amazing. YAY!! Love you, Granny.

Peppermint said...

Peppermint left herself logged in again. This is Karen.

Connie said...

Thanks for sharing the blessings of God with us. God truly is amazing in giving out His grace and peace. He truly does not leave us. That little one is so beautiful.....the Lord has big plans for him, I know.

Frazzled Farm Wife said...

I have been following Beckham's progress on FB. God is good!